The New in Me

So finally my hands and mind are free enough to let me blog on this. It's a kind of story. It's a collection of factoids that're gathered somewhere inside my mind and the cached memories have become the pages in the history book of my mind.

I remember, it was the first month of my 9th class in Rajasthan High School, Sahibganj. I was taking part in a drawing competition in another school organized by the DC of sahibganj. I got the first prize and also got one thing that became the most prized posession for me. That one thing was the passion to mark a name for myself and i remember that was triggered by the white bold letters on the green background of a 3'*3' board. The board was to highlight the 10th toppers in the school. I read "Tara Kant Jha", i had heard the stories that he turned crazy when he got IIT and he was one exceptionally intelligent man. And this event gave me enough craziness to top the 10th board examination, i stopped playing volley ball, got hooked off from one of my closest friend and comics partner. I started studying as that became the only thing in my life. No friends, no relatives, only books were all that could be seen around me. And came the preboards, i worked harder throughout the exams, slept less than 5 hours, and gave the toll by making my body lean and thin. Anyways i was happy, i was satisfied with my exams and was expecting to get good marks. The preboard results came and everybody was stunned to see my mark sheet. I had got 95% in the preboard which was something rare to happen in the bihar board exams, and surely i was exalted. Now i had to prepare myself for the real exam which was from 14th february and Saraswati puja was on 10th of february. This puja is something i can never keep myself away from. So i participated in the puja, did some coloring of puja pandal. 14th May, i was sitting, enjoying the abundance of light and air in my Bhartia Colony. A younger class 8th guy then, came with one newspaper cutting in his hand and shouting announcing the result. The paper had sections as first division, 2nd division, and 3rd division, with roll numbers typed in each section. And each of these sections were under the name of a particular school. Without much hassle i could see my roll number in the first division section. I was happy and so was my family.

Whole of 12th was about IIT and engg. But I messed up badly and finally ended up in IIIT-C. The passion was gone and i didnot want to study anymore. I just wanted to pass the engg somehow and to get a job which could feed me along with my family who had high expectations from me. First year went with all my complaints from myself. I got a fakka in maths in first semester, and that was the point when i felt that there was something sinking in me and i felt like i could never recover from that. But then Rohit happened to me. He is like an event to me which changed my life. I started to take things easy without expecting much which had become my habit since school days. I learnt a lot in the college. College ended with all the sweet and sour memories in me. And then Alumnus. Being in Alumnus gave me boldness and fearlessness. And something new had taken the shape in me. That new was beautiful, bold and fearless. And that new is still in me and taking me to places and i am sure this is taking different forms now, improving day by day.